Saturday, January 15, 2011

New number, same thing,


I was going to name this post something about 420, as in Nursing 420 which is the course I'm in now, however the only pictures I could find were about marijuana and something about that didn't really seem appropriate. So then I started thinking more about this semester and the title I came up with seemed much more fitting and honest anyway.

Nursing 420 is the fourth semester out of my five in the nursing program, and honestly it feels exactly the same as 350, except it has a different number. All 64 people in my nursing class move through the program together, which I LOVE. But it also means that every semester feels like the same thing. For the past three semesters we have sat in the same room, in the same seats, doing the same thing. This semester started the exact same way as every other semester with all 60 something of us in the computer lab trying to print everything, bitching and being confused. Then we went to seminar, which is boring just like last semester, talked about LEI stuff like we do every semester, etc. Then in theory we did the same drill that we always do, in the same seats. I just am feeling like I'm tired of doing the same thing every semester. I used to be SO excited about the beginning of the semester and lately it just feels like a continuation of previous semesters. I hope that as we get moving with this semester there will be new things that make this class different than the other classes. I just want something NEWWWWWWWWWWW.

I am really excited for clinical this semester because I finally get to do my pediatric clinical. This is really cool because we are in the brand new hospital that just opened on Tuesday and is the most expensive building in all of Grand Rapids. It's AWESOME. Unfortunately we can't get into the new hospital for our first two weeks of clinical so we are going to Mary Free Bed for a week before we go there. I will update more next week after I go to MFB. This week I didn't have anything with clinical though so I only had a two day week, which is awesome because I have bronchitis and pink eye and just feel like sleeping :) Stay tuned for clinical adventures next week!

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

One more semester down, more lessons learned.


At the end of last semester I had an entry titled "Two down, three to go!" and now at the end of this semester I am excited to say that I only have TWO to go! This semester has absolutely flown by. I've also gotten much closer to some of my nursing friends and I can see this shift away from sorority sisters and towards nursing friends happening all the time. I'm really happy with the way my friendships are growing and changing lately, and it's so nice to be past that halfway point and to now be able to say that once this semester starts I will only have ONE left to go. Awesome.


I really enjoyed this semester. I liked both of my clinical rotations and instructors a lot. My instructor at Saint Mary's was great. Amy was young and had graduated from Grand Valley's nursing program, so she understood what we were going through. She also worked at Saint Mary's on the floor that we were on so she knew the ins and outs of the floor and she knew all the nurses. This was great because she was able to match us with nurses that would be good with students. She really made the rotation fun and comfortable and she helped us through everything without ever getting too frustrated with us :) My instructor at Ferguson, my mental health rotation, was Dave. He forced us out of our comfort zones and forced at to look at ourselves in a much harsher light in order to see our biases and our stereotypes. Because of him I was able to learn more about mental health than I ever thought would be possible from this rotation. He also taught me more about communication than I have ever learned from any other instructor or any other class. By learning to communicate with people with mental illness I can now feel much more comfortable talking to any patient that I will have in the future. I loved my experience at Ferguson, which is funny because at the beginning of the semester I thought I would HATE it. Funny how things change.

MY theory class was my only final this semester, which is funny to me too because I remember having 4 or 5 finals and freaking out and studying for weeks. Then I remember crying after my finals because I was sure I had failed and was NEVER going to get into nursing school. So needless to say, it's great to be where I am now. I didn't do as well on my final as I wanted so I'm still a little mad at myself for that because I only needed to get 2 more questions right to have gotten an A- instead of a B+ but hey, I guess I will get over it. And 351 is just credit/no credit so I'm good there :) I'm excited to move onto Nursing 420 and I will update more about that when I get there!

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Final thoughts on Ferguson!


Last week was my last week at Ferguson. It was really interesting to see the way that the residents reacted to us leaving. Some of the residents got SUPER clingy during the last week and wanted to be with us the whole day, others didn't want to even come down to see us because they didn't want to say good-bye. A few of them were really upset that we were leaving and one even cried because she didn't want us to go. It was definitely an experience to see all of the different reactions and learn how to respond to them. After our last clinical we went out for lunch with our instructor and then we headed to the CHS building to listen to our instructor present his master's presentation. It was really great because after he was done, the master's committee asked us how we felt about the clincal we had, since he was talking about it. We got to all talk and pretty much help to defend his presentation and it was just really cool. We all made him cry :)

So for clinical every week we write a journal entry answering questions about how the week went, so I felt a good way to sum up my time at Ferguson would be to just post some of my responses from my final journal entry. I know they are kind of long but I want to have them on here to look back on, plus I think they are a good view of what I learned. ALSO I made a paper chain to count down until GRADUATION! Only 243 days left!

1. What do you see as the role of the nurse in this clinical area (Either Psych/Mental Health in general OR a community setting like this…or both)?

The role of the nurse in this clinical area is one that is very widespread and varied, meaning that the nurse has many roles. The nurse is an observer. She must be aware of all of the things going on with those that she is caring for, and she must watch closely in order to assess for changes in physical health or mental status. It seems that through working with the same people repeatedly and for a long period of time, the nurse can actually learn the patient’s patterns and behaviors and predict when they are going to have problems. The nurse also needs to be an advocate. By observing what is happening with those that she is caring for, the nurse can then advocate for the things that they need. In the hospital setting this may be safety precautions, medication changes or a sitter. And in the community this may be finding a new case worker, helping with insurance or disability coverage, or advocating for the patient to be placed in a hospital or rehab center. The nurse can also be a trust worthy person in the lives of the people that she cares for. Many mental health patients are in need of someone to talk to and someone to trust, and nurses can be that person for their patients. One other important role of the nurse is an educator. The nurse can help work with mental health patients to help them to understand their conditions and work towards managing it. The nurse can help the patient to find things that may trigger an episode and find things that may help them to feel safer or more content. The nurse has so many important roles in this clinical area and these few are just a sample of them.


6. Please list what you feel your strengths are in Psych/Mental Health nursing. Please list areas related to this clinical specialty where you think you need to continue to grow and learn.

I feel that I have several strengths in Psych/Mental Health nursing. I feel that I have a good ability to connect with people in a short period of time. I have been told by several of my nursing faculty that this is something that I’m good at, and I feel that I have seen that a lot in this rotation. Often I only have a few minutes to talk with a resident and I feel that in that short time I do a pretty good job of connecting with them and developing a quick relationship that makes them feel a little more comfortable. I also feel that my communication skills are good. In this rotation these skills have improved drastically, and I think that I do a good job at feeling comfortable talking to the residents and making them feel comfortable as well. I am not intimidated to approach many of the residents and I am able to carry on conversations well. I also think that I have strength in being a good listener. Many residents simply need someone to talk to, and someone who can listen and understand what they are feeling. That has been one of our biggest roles at Ferguson, and I feel that I am good at being a listener without self-disclosing or offering my advice when it is not needed.

That being said, there are still areas that I need to improve upon. Though my communication skills are improving all the time, I still have a great deal more to learn. I still have a lot to learn about communicating with people who are hallucinating and with people who are schizophrenic. I also still need to learn more about communicating with people who are depressed or suicidal. There is still a lot of work that I need to do to work on these skills. I am trying to work on not being judgmental but there is still a definite need for improvement there as well. I also need to continue to learn more about mental illness. There is still so much that I don’t know about many mental health conditions and as I learn more about them I will be able to better understand my patients and the things that they are going through.

7. What did you learn during this clinical rotation? What did you learn that you didn’t expect to learn?

I have learned so much more from this clinical than I could have ever expected. I have learned so much about myself and about the biases that I held that I didn’t even know about. I expected to learn a lot about mental illness and about people with mental illness, but I didn’t expect to learn as much as I did about myself. The more I learn about the residents at Ferguson the more I feel my own stereotypes being broken down. I have learned that so many of these people have come to be homeless because of situations that are truly out of their control. They did not become homeless because they are lazy or stupid, or because they were too drunk to get a job. Many of them are homeless because they are mental ill or because they were abandoned by family and friends and couldn’t take care of themselves. Knowing their stories has completely changed the way that I will view homeless people for the rest of my life and will absolutely affect my clinical practice. I have also learned that these people are not very different from me. They all have the need to be cared for and cared about. They have feelings and emotions. They worry about the same things that I worry about, and they are upset by the same things too. They may feel or express these emotions in ways very different from my, but the feelings are the same. Treating these patients like they are different or outcasts is not the way to best help them, they need to same things that any other patient needs, maybe just in a different way. I have also learned that there are so many things that these residents need in order to function on a day to day basis. They need the help of doctors, case managers and social workers in many instances, to help them with all of the things that they need. I didn’t know that there were even that many resources available for people with mental illness, and knowing this will definitely help me to find places like these anywhere that I am practicing.

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Giving thanks


This week we only had class on Monday and Tuesday because we have Wednesday, Thursday and Friday off for Thanksgiving, which was WONDERFUL. It was so nice to not have clinical this week and be able to take a break and relax. We had our third exam on Monday so it was kind of stressful to study for that but Cheryl and I tried to be really pro-active and study throughout the week so we didn't have to cram the day of the exam. But don't get me wrong, I still crammed the day of the exam. Totally paid off though, got a 94%. Happy Thanksgiving to me :)

On that note, this week has made me (along with the rest of the country) think about all of things that I am thankful for in my life. On the subject of nursing/school there are so many things that I am thankful for. First of all I am thankful for the opportunity that I have to even be in college. There are so few people, and even fewer women, around the world that have the opportunity to go to college at all, let along go to college for five years. I am also thankful for my grandparents and aunt, who have all passed away but provided me with enough money to help pay for a substantial amount of my first few years of college. Without their help, paying for college would have much more of a burden on myself and parents and I am so grateful for them. Which brings me to my parents, who have been constantly supportive both emotionally and financially. My parents have helped me to not have to stress about money throughout my time in college, and they have been supportive when I thought I wouldn't make it in nursing, and when I told them it was going to take me five years to graduate. They have always been there to tell me I could do it and that things were going to work out. They are always interested in what I am doing and just generally always there for me. I am so so grateful for everything that they do for me. I am also thankful that I am going into nursing because it gives me the opportunity to touch the lives of the people I care for. I think that being a nurse is the greatest job in the world because we get to be there for people when they desperately need someone to be there for them. I can't wait to graduate and be a real nurse. The nursing program at Grand Valley, though frustrating at times, is amazing and wonderful and provides us with so many great opportunities to grow and learn and get real world experience. The final thing that I am thankful for is my FRIENDS in the nursing program. The people that I have met in the past 11 months are so incredible and have become such a huge part of my life. They are all just genuinely kind and nice people and I am so blessed to have met them and have them in my life. I am so thankful that I have gotten to know them and that they are there for me when I need them.

Moral of the story, I am so lucky to be where I am right now. There were so many times when I never thought that I would make it into the nursing program and thought I would never be able to become a nurse. Now that I am here I feel so blessed that I have made it this far and that in less than nine months I will graduate and be able to finally be a nurse. I am so thankful for all of the people that have helped me to get to this point (my bestie/roommate Courtney for putting up with my crying and frustration for two years) and I am thankful now for all of the people helping me along this journey. So thank you thank you thank you to everyone, I love you all.

Friday, November 19, 2010

Phase 10-ed OUT.


At the of last week I was feeling pretty renewed and excited about being at Ferguson for two more weeks, but after this week I'm feeling much more ready to be done. It's not that I am not enjoying getting to know more about people, it's more so that we only spend time with the SAME 8-10 people every single day. I am just getting sick of sitting around and playing card games all day. And sometimes there are only one or two residents down in the conference room so most of us just sit and play card games with each other. I know there are still things that I am learning, but I just wish we were able to meet more residents and get to know new people. Some days I literally play 3-4 hours of Phase Ten, which, though it's my favorite game, I can only play so many hours of it before I start to go crazy. Especially when I play it with a resident who takes 5 minutes for each turn and also can't hear what's going on. It makes me a little nuts. So I'm at the point now where I'm about ready to move on to something new, so I'm glad we only have one more week left. I think I'm also just ready to be done with this semester, which is how I always feel when we are nearing the end. I have really enjoyed my time at Ferguson though and I definitely have learned SO much about working with and communicating with people who are mentally ill and I have seen my biases and opinions change so much in the past five weeks that it amazes even me. It's funny how you don't realize how many stereotypes and biases you have until you are actually forced to confront them. Honestly, spending time at Ferguson should required to graduate from the nursing problem, because it will forever change the way you will look at people with mental illness. It's unbelievable how much I have changed my outlook.

In other news, we have our third exam next week so I'm trying to actually be productive and study for it ahead of time. A group of us from class got together on Tuesday to start studying for it, and then Cheryl and I went out for breakfast this morning and studied for about an hour and a half so I'm feeling like I'm already ahead of the game since usually I don't start studying until the day of the exam...Haha so hopefully I will do well on it. AND we only have two days of class next week and then we are off Wednesday-Friday for Thanksgiving break! Then only two weeks and one final until the end of the semester. I can't believe how fast it's going :)

Friday, November 12, 2010

Group Therapy


If you haven't figured out by now, instead of trying to focus on the mundane details of everything I do all week, I'm trying to pick out the most significant things and talk about those. I'm doing this because I feel like by picking out the most important things I will end up with a more genuine blog to look back on at the end of this nursing shenanigan.

So that being said, this week we had seminar for the first time in well over a month. The topic of this seminar was "Mental Health Topics," so we didn't really know what to expect. It turned out to be a seminar about therapeutic communication, which is something we actually talk about every day in my clinical rotation. Therapeutic communication in a nutshell, is when you have a conversation with someone with the intent of digging deeper and finding out how they are feeling. It is not focused on you, you don't use any self-disclosure, and you focus on how they are feeling and ask questions to learn more. So we talked a little about therapeutic communication and then our instructor asked for a volunteer to come up and help her demonstrate what we would be doing later when we broke up into groups to practice. One student volunteered, and though we had scenarios that we could choose to use, she chose to talk about her real life (another option she told us we could use). Within a minute or so or her talking, we realized that she was genuinely having problems in her life and she got really emotional in front of the whole class. The instructor kept going with the demonstration and at the end, the entire class was absolutely silent. So then we broke up into groups and took turns being the nurse and the patient. Since the student who had gone up in front of the class was in my group, I felt that it was only fair that all talk about real life when it was our turn to be the patient. So we did. Megan and Cheryl were the other two people in my group (two of my best nursing friends), so it was pretty easy to just talk to them. It was such an awesome day though. All of us got to talk about our stuff that was going on, and it made it much easier to have a genuine therapeutic conversation. I love group therapy so it was great :) It's so amazing how these people that I didn't even know a year ago have become some of the people I relate to the most and have come to trust more than a lot of people in my life. Love them.

Sticking with talking about therapeutic communication, we talk with residents in Ferguson all day during clinical. Most of these people have really serious mental illnesses, such as schizophrenia, bipolar, depression, OCD, etc., and they have a lot of issues and problems in their lives. Over several years of students coming in, they have learned that the students are "safe" and therefore they tend to cling to us and want to talk with us about the things they are feeling or the things that are going on in their lives. So we spend all day trying to use the things we have learned about therapeutic communication to help them to feel better, and help us dig deeper into what they are feeling. It's really interesting as we are starting to learn more about them both from figuring it out on our own, and by talking with our instructor during post-conference. Some of them have just had such hard lives. Being abandoned by friends, parents, siblings, spending time in jail, spending time in rehab, being hospitalized frequently, and so many other things. It's been such an incredible learning experience to spend time getting to know these people and learning so much about their lives. Earlier this week I was sort of feeling like I was getting bored with clinical and not really getting anything more out of it, but now I've sort of had a renewed sense of wanting to learn more from the residents. Which is good because I still have two more weeks there :)

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Friends for Life ♥




In my first blog entry I talked about how I already felt like I was making friends that I would stay friends with for the rest of my time in the nursing program, and as it turns out I was right. I have met so many people in the nursing program that have honestly turned into my family over these past ten months. When you spend as much time with people as we spend with each other, it would be impossible to not get close. So my friend Jenna decided that the group of us that it really close should all get together and take a Christmas card picture of our "Nursing Family." I am in love with the pictures. And these people. They really do get me through the program, keep me on track and keep me sane. I can't imagine what my life is going to be like in ten more months when we all go our separate ways. Jenna was also the one that on our very first day of lab in Nursing 315 asked us if we thought we were all going to be friends for life. At the time we all thought that she was crazy, but now I wonder if we really will all stay friends down the road. I am so lucky to have met so many amazing people that have become some of my best friends. It's cheesy, I know. But if you look at the pictures you should understand that we are just really cheesy kind of people :)

Also, clinical was really uneventful this week and we only had one day! I got my clinical placements for next semester and I am at Helen Devos Children's Hospital 9C for my pediatrics rotation and back at St. Mary's on 3 Lacks (which is BRAND NEW and not even open yet) for my second Med-Surg rotation. I will update more on those next semester though.